"The Man Who Remembered" by Elisabeth Khan

I imagine Marcel on one of his nighttime excursions

to some den of iniquity or other, swathed in coats and

blankets, eating mashed potatoes in the back of the car.

The boy in the brothel is pale and slim, or tan and muscled

The man looks, but does not touch, just fumbles under the sheet.

Who knows, perhaps he remembers a girl from his youth?

His driver, once a lover, takes him back to where he belongs,

to the cork-lined sickroom strewn with manuscripts and proofs

where he swallows some pills that will keep him awake until dawn.

Minutely he reconstructs moment after moment,

smell and emotion, heartbeat by heartbeat,

thought by thought, into a brilliant mosaic

of fallen petals, depicting a past that is not his own.


French author Marcel Proust (1871–1922) is best known for his monumental novel, À la recherche du temps perdu (“In Search of Lost Time”). Among the themes explored in its seven volumes are memory, the nature of art, and homosexuality. Living in an era where “inverts” were frowned upon, the eccentric Proust himself was not out, except to his closest friends. Despite his poor health he had been a brilliant student who started contributing to literary magazines at an early age. Through classmates at his élite school, the Lycée Condorcet in Paris, he gained access to aristocratic circles and high-society salons, which would provide him with a wealth of material for his masterpiece.

Editorial Comment: Valentin Louis Georges Eugène Marcel Proust is probably as staple a Modernist as any other, with his signature eccentricity and a thirst to understand life in all it's abstract form. He, rich with all the experiences from the high end society, was still hungry for more. He was a student and a master, and this eloquent masterpiece is an ode to the student, the writer, the man, and the human Proust is. Khan evokes a convincingly graphic image of how a night would have panned out for Marcel, and I am inclined to wager on her imagination. (Pragya)

Elisabeth Khan describes herself thus, "I'm a voracious reader and avid traveller, eternal student of people and languages. Living mainly in the USA, my roots are in Europe and my heart is in India."